Wow.  Mrs D - your story has really got inside my head.  I heard a little on the radio, then bought the book on Amazon.  So much of it sounds like me talking.   (although I have only just got up to the quitting bit - both in the book and in my life).

The other night, sitting at the dinner table, my two boys were discussing getting some icecream for dessert, and how much we all like ice-cream.  Then Mr 2 chirps in with "mummy loves wine".   This is not a healthy life view to be passing down to my kids.

Avoiding emotion?  - TBH, my marriage hasn't been in the best place lately.  I wonder how much of this I can put down to my drinking.